Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Few more words

First things first
I did not tell her...I have my reasons
I apologize for not replying to you...I had my reasons

So...

New Folder..New Text Document..New Year is here too.

This year I came back to this space...started writing more often...read a lot.. and I thank every one whose post I
read and all those who read my posts...your posts and comments made me a better man this year and I thank you for that.

"You are a part of me ... I am a part of you
I am lonely...so are you...are we?"

I want to start something new, something fresh.. like the mornings you know. I love them, every single day.
Its getting poetic now...I should stop.

Thursday, November 20, 2008

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Melts like a chocolate
when I see her

Stuck on a song
am I waiting for her?

Torn paper from left pocket
..telling her ..asking her

Am I writing all this
...is it her?


Misses a beat or two
when I think of her

An amazing night in Paris or a gloomy day
why do I miss her?

Little faith with little fear
..little is the time for me and her

Does she know all this..
..shall I tell her?

Monday, October 27, 2008

You and me..

I want this to be beautiful
..as beautiful as you are

What should I call you .. I don't know
but you know it won't matter

I never asked...and you never said
and I just loved the silence

I don't want to...but you should go now
...its not the place for you.



A dream...too perfect to be true
I knew...from the beginning

You know...I will forget you one day
perhaps its not meant to be

Words are words...words will be words
but you...you will be poetry...always

I don't want to...let you go
please stay..stay for a while...will you?

Friday, October 24, 2008

Tagged - 2

Accidentally Tagged by Cynical Solitaire

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1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?

I thought this was a love tag...Y so serious.. probably I will let her go...she must be having some reasons

2. If you can have a dream come true, what would it be?

..that I am this great singer who is also a great sportsman and an amazing writer and an incredible chef (yeah that will be counted as one)

3. Whose butt would you like to kick?

The one whose butt resembles a Football...funny world...there is footballer name Nicky Butt! (Poor guy must be butt of all jokes)!

4. Why do you blog?

To give words to my emotions.

5. Will you fall in love with your best friend?

You know..once upon a time...leave that..old story!..but the one I fall in love with...I would like her to be my bestest friend !

6. Which is more blessed: loving someone or being loved by someone?

They should be mutually inclusive. I am also for two way traffic.

7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you love?

"Hum intezzar karenge...tera qyammat tak...khuda kare ki qyammat ho...aur tu aaye" (PS : see the last post too :D )

8. If the person you secretly like is attached, what will you do?

What can I do ...poor me :( ...probably will write a poem about how I feel... :)

9. If you could root for one social cause, what would it be?

Education :)

10. What takes you down the fastest?

...wont tell you :P .. ok .. its the guilt feelin ..

11. What resurrects you the fastest?

Good time with family or friends

12. What’s your fear?

That I will die young....also snakes!! :(

13. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?

Solitaire...I guess...she is Hermione Granger meets Elizabeth Swann meets Robin Scherbatsky !!

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married and poor?

Are these two even related?...Happy and Married..is my choice!

15. What’s the first thing you do when you wake up?

I look for the keys ...because someone is on the door.. and that is why I woke up!

16. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously who will you pick?

I will ask Q.6 !

17. Would you give all in a relationship?


No I can't!

18. Would you forgive and forget someone no matter how horrible a thing he has done?

Totally!

19. Do you prefer being single or in a relationship?

Enuff of singlehood... prefer being in a relationship!

20. Tag 6 people.

Why?? ...up for grabs!

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HAPPY DEEPAWALI!


Wednesday, October 15, 2008

Waiting

Pen and paper by my pillow
A poetic heart.. short on words
wishing for the wishes
foolishly smiling on smiles
listening to the dreamy eyes
and waiting...

It rained two nights back
but its smell.. still with me
I look up to the heavens
but no rain coming my way
praying with my hand held out
and waiting...

In the evening I walk back home
singing an old song..no one is listening
Teary eyes and I can cry
no one is looking
to catch a loose kite.. falling slowly
are you waiting?

Monday, September 29, 2008

झुमका

एक झुमका
हल्का भूरा तेरी आंखों सा
थोडा नीला मेरे ख्वाबों सा
ज़ुल्फ़ों से खेलता गालों को चूमता
कमबख्त झुमका

ये रात
चमकते सितारों से भरे आंचल की
अधूरे चांद से मेरे वादों की
तेरे बहते काजल सी काली
यादगार रात

एक ज़िन्दगी
इंतज़ार मे हसीं लम्हों के
करके कुछ अनकहे समझॊते
मुठ्ठी भर यादों मे सिमटी ज़िन्दगी
भूली नहीं... तेरा वो झुमका

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

Wishes

I went back to the Moment
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Wish I can play guitar..
..will leave some music behind

Wish I can write a book..
..will leave some stories behind

Not much time left I feel..
..wish I had more memories behind



Our song is coming to an end..
..wish we danced one last time

Night is getting darker every moment..
..wish we kissed one last goodbye

So little time left I feel..
..wish I once told you how much I love you



Tears in your eyes my friend..
..wish I had seen them earlier

Sorrow and pain in your heart..
..wish I had given you strength and happiness

Don't cry..don't be sad

So little time left I know..
..why not we celebrate

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

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Hate me
Hate me ... I want you to..
Hate me ... I deserve to..

I gave you a dream..
You nourished it...decorated it
and one day...
I killed it with my own hands

Murderer has to be hated


I fear your eyes
I fear your voice
My mirror giving me a wicked smile, asks me
"O Satan! when will you die?"

Devil needs to be hated

I sit in the darkness today...
burning like this candle
asking you to hate me...
hate me more than you love me...

Tuesday, August 05, 2008

.......

I know its cheating...putting up old poems...but this one is only a few months old...and seeing the response for the previous embarrassing one..I thought this one deserves to be there...also it has been very long since I posted...so here it is...another of my embarrassing ones...nd reason..i think you can easily guess

आंखें हो रही हैं बंद, दिमाग रुक सा गया है
पी रखी है मैने, अंदर एक इंसान जाग सा गया है

बिना पिये कुछ बातें बोल नहीं पाता
पीता हूं तो सब कुछ लिखने को दिल है चाहता

लिखता हूं एक पहचान के लिये
जिसे दुनिया याद रखे मेरे जाने के बाद
पर जाने से डरता हूं मैं...अभी कुछ देर और

कलम रुक सी रही है, मोहब्ब्त बढ सी रही है
पर ये मोहब्बत है मोहब्ब्त से शायद
तुम ही आती हो ख्यालों में
इकतरफ़ा मोहब्बत है शायद..

क्या करूं ऎ परवरदिगार, कुछ इशारा कर
ये पैगाम ही पहुंचा के थोडा रहम कर

Thursday, July 03, 2008

पहला मोड

I wrote this one some eight years ago while returning home after my 12th board .... found it yesterday among my stuff.
I am little proud (strong hindi vocabulary) and little embarrassed (seems immature now)of it.
Damn its too long...



समय का पहिया घूम गया
नवजीवन मुझमे झूम गया
ज़िन्दगी के पहले मोड पर मुडा हूं
स्वर्णिम काल विदा कर बढा हूं

उसे जाना था वो चला गया
मुझे तडपता बिलखता छोड गया
जब था तब महत्व नहीं जाना
जाने के बाद कैसा पछ्ताना

अब सारी यादें जो मेरी अपनी हैं
जीवन की अनमोल निधी हैं
निःसन्देह मेरा साथ नहीं छोडेंगी
हार्दिक भावनओं को स्वच्छ करेंगी
मानसिक द्र्ढता और संबल देंगी

पर यादों के सहारे नहीं जीना है
सपना है तो पूरा भी करना है
कर्म करते जाना यही कहता है मेरा मन
कर्मण्यवाधिकारस्ते मा फलेषु कदाचन

आज इस मोड पर

जब हमारी रेलगाडी रेलें बदल रही है
नए रास्तों की ओर प्रशस्त कर रही है
अज्ञात सत्यों की ओर ढकेल रही है

तब हे प्रभु

पीछे हतने वाले कदम हमारे न हो
जीवन किसी के सहारे न हो
इरादे हमेशा नेक हो
चाहे कांटे अनेक हो

इन कांटो के बिना गुलाब भी क्या जिया
कांते ही तो हैं गुलाबों की प्रिया
गुलाब की महक सभी के मन में हो
खुशहाली सदा ही इस चमन में हो

ये चमन, मेरा देश, मेरा हिंदोस्तान
इसी पर हो आने वाला जीवन कुर्बान
ऎ मेरे वतन तुझे मेरा सलाम
- जय हिंद !

Thursday, June 26, 2008

Tagged

Tagged by Reflections

My first tag :)

I am: Jack of many things! (I wish life was 29 :D)

I think: a lot

I know: “Picture abhi baki hai mere dost”

I want: to quit job

I have: everything I need to have everything I want to have..confusing??

I wish: to open a restaurant

I hate: nothing (hating is too harsh for me)

I miss: Ma, Pa nd Chunnu (my li’l sis)

I fear: Snakes

I feel: poetic at times

I hear: running water…damn it’s my roomy! Never closing taps properly

I smell: Nothing…cold hai yaar!

I crave: Gajar ka halwa :D

I search: happyness (if not found…I manufacture it in my head :) )

I wonder: nothing in particular

I regret: a few things

I love: going back home

I ache: when I realize my stupidity

I am not: arrogant … some get this as first impression

I dance: whenever m happy :)

I sing: quite well…. (Listen “Kabhi Kabhi Aditi” ..Everyone is sayin it sounds like me)

I cry: rarely…well TZP makes me cry :(

I dont always: ask for help

I fight: loneliness

I write: from my heart :)

I win: hearts ;)

I lose: love ;)

I never: watched Titanic completely, start to end.

I always: forget whether I locked the door or not (even after few seconds of locking it)

I confuse: about love and marriage

I listen: songs (they calm me down)

I can usually be found: day dreamin

I need: some new friends

I am happy about: being alive

I imagine: a happy life...

It was hard doing this, but liked it..so not tagging anyone.. up for grabs!

Thursday, June 19, 2008

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Cakes I like ..
.. bunny, teddy, violin, train you baked them all

I love you Ma

Grumpy me ..
because it was your b'day not mine
and you still loved me..

I love you Sis

Gifts I got ..
everything I ever asked..
but your faith was the best ..

I love you Pa



I cry this b'day
.. as without you ..its just another day..


Happy 25th :)

Monday, June 16, 2008

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Gusty winds and a diamond ring
A walk of lifetime
Music of waves and horizon of dreams
So many words said and only one to be heard..

Along came a wave .. holding us in sand
I saw the setting sun in those eyes
and then she looked at me...


Tears rolled down
Forgiven fights...unforgettable yet broken promises
All flashed by in front of eyes
.. but as always the morning breeze came with faith
and I looked at her..

Sleeping as if giving life to dreams
then in a moment she woke up..
twenty six years and those eyes still had the same answer...

Monday, June 02, 2008

Moment

An unfinished poem in back pocket
.... searching for emotions

A rusted Cross around the neck
.... testing the faith

A worn out shirt with an old jeans
.... experiencing the mortality

A thread tied on the right hand
.... connecting to the roots

A moment captured to come back to....

Thursday, May 29, 2008

Internal Affairs

Peace ... Explodes
Happyness ... Manufactured
Anger ... Killing
Desires ... Unlimited

Love ... Confuses
Sadness ... Fights
Grief ... Silenced
Life ... Phoenix

Tuesday, May 27, 2008

My Little Sunshine

My little girl asks me one day
"Pa can I meet an angel someday?"
I nod and her eyes lit up
she paints one and keep with her

She comes back and asks me
"Daddy what does angels do?"
"Sweetheart they protect you, take care of you"
"then you keep this Pa I already have you"

I see her praying...praying for the early rain
As she loves to play in those rainy rains
Ask her "Summers or Rain? Which one do you like child?"
"Of course Summers daddy! I am your little sunshine!"


Happy B'Day :)

Friday, April 25, 2008

अनामिका

गलत हुं मैं .... सही हो तुम
जानता हुं मैं .... ना जानो तुम
उस कल में मैं .... इस आज में तुम
बेचैन सा मैं .... अन्जान हो तुम

रुका सा मैं .... रेत हो तुम
शब्द में मैं .... गज़ल में तुम
ये लम्हा मैं .... हर लम्हा तुम
गुमनाम सा मैं .... अनामिका हो तुम...

Tuesday, April 22, 2008

इंतज़ार

इक रात मेरे अंदर,
आफ़ताब की तलाश में
अब्र किसका लिए इन आंखॊं में,
अशुफ़्ता सा जिये जा रहा हुं

आसिम भी मान लिया खुद को,
अपने खुदा के दरबार में
तबस्सुम ना जाने किसका,
ज़हन से जाता ही नहीं है

मय से मकसूद सिर्फ़ इतना,
लिखवाती है वो बेकरारी में
नज़्म लिख रहा मैं होश में,
कुछ जवाबॊं का इंतज़ार है....

Saturday, February 09, 2008

Wandering Soul

I wanna go home....my home
To my parents..to my little sister
To my childhood..to my innocence
Everyday..these days, I wanna go home

I wanna change somethings from past
Somethings which will give me little peace
Somethings which will bring a little happyness
Things which will make me a better man
In every life, I wanna change somethings

Sometimes I wanna cry
Sometimes I wanna scream
Sometimes I wanna sleep for a while
Sometimes I want her to be with me
All the time I want to live a life.

I wish my wishes to come true
I believe my beliefs to be true
My faith to remain faithful to me
My purpose to be purposeful
And My Home to be my home always....

I wanna go..